Laine.
20-something. Homebody. Spoils on sappy fiction. Hardcore coffeeholic. Dull on dates-be it remembering dates, or being on an actual date. lol. Fancies cats. Swoons over musicians. :) Weird for most people, but that's what makes her different. Lives for a purpose; we all should.



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hi! ohehm, i havent blog for like, eons! lol. there has been a lot goin on..hay. first up, im suffering from serious breakouts (what’s new?)-worst to date. hindi pa ako nakaka punta sa derma kasi tinatamad ako. haha. so i opted to buy an otc acne gel, with hopes na ma lessen ang pesteng zits. trololol.

tapos, medyo brokenhearted ako. (awww..) si hami, we finally had a serious conversation last monday (with me on the verge of crying). j
he told me na titigil na raw niya panliligaw sakin.. kasi he s preoccupied with family issues. verbatim sabi niya, “minsan mahal kita, minsan hindi. hindi ko na alam kasi gagawin ko.” and his honesty just breaks my heart.. habang sinasabi niya yun, para rin siyang naiiyak. i felt the urge to hug him at that moment, pero di ko kaya. then sabi niya sakin, magsalita naman daw ako. ibuhos ko na raw galit ko sa kanya pero di ko kaya.. but i asked him, “may aasahan pa ba ako?” saabi niya, “hindi ko alam” hayy.. naiiyak tuloy ako. hee called me last night, di ko sinagot.. di ko alam sasabihin ko eh. pero sa totoo lang, gusto ko sabihin sa kanya na mahal ko siya..yun.

medyo naapektuhan. tuloy quality ng work ko. may evaluation form akong nakita and ang grade ko dun eh 67.something percent. waht.. tapos feeling ko ang bagal ng pacing ko sa work.

on a lighter note, medyo addicted ako sa reggae bcos of. Magic! :) in fact, dinownload ko full album nila. hehe . nakaka good vibes. :)

i could take an evening run, but i chose to be a couch potato tonight and read. :)

i pray na maging okay lahat in God’s time.

since i miss blogging BIG time, tadaa! :) here’s an update, tho skimpy lang. hihi. hope you’re cozy and warm on a chilly sunday night!

c u r r e n t l y…

i. reading- Predictably Irrational by Dan Ariely. Hami and i are still not okay (and will never be.) but, we snacked on fries yesterday. yep, we do love fries, and we had the same thing on our b-ball game date. wth. lol. dapat kasi reader’s digest papahiram niya sakin. since not in good condition na mga RD niya, eto nalang. one of his faves daw. in fact, yung isa sa illustrations dito, cover photo niya sa fb. haha.

segue: he s so nerdy. i mean, he loves malcolm gladwell. he watches ted talks-most of the time (i thought ted is the talking teddy bear na bastos-hindi pala). nung nag away kami, he blurted out that the lifespan of humans is 75-male and 90-female. wala lang. haha.

ii. listening- to mr. big and aretha franklin, with a bit of madonna on the side. :)

iii. feeling- brokenhearted. he totally ignores me. and it s sad. i miss him. dapat maganda ako bukas pag nagkita ulit kami. magsi skinny pants ako. haha. :p

iv. missing- hami. while at potato corner yesterday, super awkward ng feeling. naiinis ako sa dramang nagpe play sa radio. natatawa na nga ako kasi yung mga linya nila, sapul samin eh. pati siya natatawa. haha. tapos, ang awkward nakita kami ng asst manager na palabas ng building. gosh, good thing di kami nag holding hands (i wish we did). i miss his hands. i love his goatie. :) soo, sexy. awkward sa elevator. naka captain america shirt siya. sabi ko, “favorite mo si capt. america?” sabi niya di naman daw. tapos, “ako favorite ko siguro si spider man” tapos bigla niya sinabi, “bakit kasi nananapot”. wth. haha. i blushed on the spot.

v. eating- a lot of leche flan lately. haha. and fries. hay. i love fries since, but i love it more now..

I can’t believe how painful this made me feel.

truth thursday

truth be told, i ve fallen for him. bad timing tho. im in a whirl of emotions at this time, and i just cant believe that i ve spilled the beans to my guy buddy-slash-ex crush-kuya, gian. sa totoo lang, i dont feel giving details to my girlfriends, kasi takot akong ma judge. i hate it when girls over react. knowing gian’s gf, omg, she’s a total bitch (but in a good way). so, instead, i divulged my love problems to gi this morning, on our way home, assuming he could help me. he delivered. i feel relieved, knowing that i have someone to rant to. haha. it s a good thing too, hearing from a guy’s perspective. gian’s diagnosis is, baka feeling daw ni hami, na reject siya. what he s recommended is that it s time for me to step up and try to save what we have. starting over again. having a clean slate. back to square one. i told gi na imposible. but he’s positive na hami and i can still work things out. gawd, we re one “complicated” couple. damn. i hate that word. and any word synonymous to it.

monday blues

hi. sobrang down ako. si hami, he’s distancing himself from me. we were doing great a few days ago, until he told me na may family problem siya. uwian nga daw siya sa kanila dahil dun. hindi na niya muna ako kinakausap, di gaya ng dati na lagi kaming nagu usap. he s sorry kasi nahihiya raw siya sakin. ang masakit sabi niya ititigil raw niya muna panliligaw sakin kasi magulo daw lately isip niya. he s told me he has a lot of deficiencies, that what he needs right now is space. he s been calling me, tryin to explain things, but ive been ignoring him every time he does. i regret my actions. yesternight, he almost ignored me, but he still waved a little “hi”. no goodbyes bago siya umuwi. sabi niya wag na raw ako malungkot. sabi ko, malungkot kasi nami miss ko na siya. he said, di daw niya ako kayang pasayahin ngayon, kasi mismong siya hindi masaya. bakit ngayon pang in love na ako sa kanya. honestly, i told him na niloloko lang talaga niya ako. after all, sino ba magkakagusto sa tulad ko. sabi niya, nainlove daw siya sakin, at di daa niya ako niloko. di raw niya ako kayang lokohin. down daw siya. i wish i can do something for him. i miss him big time. :( im afraid that im finally falling in love with him. fck circumstances.

love, like daisy, needs
time to grow. but i let my
heart fall too quickly
and free up my emotions.
no wasting time; i love you.

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